New Years

I don't think I've ever had a great New Years Eve.  I think maybe I expect too much from it.  I always expect to spend it having a great time, but I never do.  Generally I have a good time, but I always come away feeling disappointed.  I don't think it has anything to do with the people I'm with, I think it is totally me.  I don't like New Years as a holiday. There is a bunch of hype and no follow through.  There is nothing really exciting about it.  And I generally get depressed the following day.  I look back at the last year and realize that in reality, I have accomplished nothing. There were no milestones I reached in the last year, nothing noteworthy, just a day to day existence of survival. I make sure I eat enough, I make sure I exercise, I have enough money to pay my bills, but there was nothing with which I can mark the year.  Just a waste of time. And my resolutions are always that next year will be better.  But try as I may, somehow they never are.