As I've been studying for the last two hours and then taking a break to read blogs, I have been brought to tears about every fifteen minutes. I was starting to think that I was emotionally disturbed and seriously needed some help until I realized what has happened in the past week.
To start, I just completed a red-taped induction into substitute teaching, but until Monday was not registered in the system, which caused some amount of stress. Then, after sleeping in Tuesday morning (they are supposed to start calling at 5 am and since I didn't get a call, I thought I wouldn't get one), I was awoken at 8:15 to work a job that started at 7:20. And continued to work it all week. The first day they were a little crazy, the second day they were better, but today, they were crazy. So I've been trying to come up with ways to help them be more engaged. Plus, the last two nights, I have gone to bed early, but not been able to fall asleep for an hour or two (because I'm not on that regular sleeping schedule). The worst part is that I wake up several times a night for no apparent reason. On top of this, I have my school work, of which I have to read a 200 pg book that is not easy reading, plus an assignment I haven't even gotten to because of my other school work, plus more reading so that I can write a response. So I'm stressed about school, about subbing and about sleep. On top of that, I volunteered to help count the homeless tonight, which goes from 9pm to 1am. Like I need to be up at 1am. I shouldn't have volunteered, but no one else was. I'm such a push over. This is why I ended up in teaching. I like to help people.
So needless to say, I am on the verge of tears again. I really need some good sleep. I am SO looking forward to Sunday, a day of rest.
Pray that I'll make it.
5 comments:
Here are my suggestions - turn off your phone, take a bubble bath, read something that has nothing to do w/ school, subbing, or sleep, and just take a couple of hours to just do something you want to do. Don't think about what you need to be doing or what you should be doing (as my aunt likes to say "Stop should-ing all over yourself") and just be. If you can get your brain off the stress roller coaster, sleep might come a little more easily.
Ditto to Scully. What a nightmare. Hope you can stop and just be for a few moments.
I'm doing better. Now I just have to talk to my poor little roommate who thinks I'm mad at her and explain that I'm not mad, I just focus in when I get really busy and tune out everything that doesn't pertain to what I have to get done NOW.
Sleeping in Saturday morning was wonderful.
i'm glad you're feeling better! Just one day at a time... :)
Glad you got to catch up on some sleep. Quit volunteering for a while though. I liked Scully's suggestions-hop in the tub with a fun book! I love you!!
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